Thank you LeeLee for your strength, it means a lot. Haven't given in yet.
Feeling much calmer now - nothing like seeing to the family at teatime to get things in perspective.
I knew it would be tough but today has just been hellish. I think I need to start this toolbox that everyone is talking about.
I'm off to my first Al-Anon meeting in 20 mins, not sure what to expect, will report back later.