I had a lot of false starts/day 1's too, before I decided to just put it away for good. It's refreshing how much more time and energy I have now that I don't focus on the 'what if'.. I know how I drink, I know how I get drunk, I know how most all alcohol tastes going down and probably coming back up. I have no need to test anything.. I've lived it.
Welcome to a fresh start..