Katy,
SoOo sorry things are rough. I did a lot of things ,while using, that I am not proud of. I think we all have. And I believe we have all caused our fair share of hurt and made the people in our lives suffer. That isnīt meant to gloss over the fact that what we did was wrong, but I agree with the others, its time to begin to work in earnest on what you started a year ago. This time with renewed vigor and with a new outlook. I only say this because I am just about where you are now, I am not worrying about my amends right now, I am just getting clean. EVerything else will fall in place and soon I will be able to make amends the way they should be made. Itīs your time now. I wish you luck. Be strong, and keep coming to the forums
Chris