I too have a friend who killed himself years ago, but I no longer hate him for leaving that way. I now understand how much pain he was in and why it was easier to die than to live under such pain. Yes, suicide is a 'selfish' act, but I completely understand how someone could kill themselves if they felt "that bad". I see both sides of it, and there's pain on both sides. I will not assign blame knowing someone feels "that badly" about living. I will pray for their soul and keep reminding myself of my own reasons for staying alive.