I've mentioned I'm going to pursue therapy and I want to read a few good books that have been suggested for further help
That part was my only point.
Do what you will. I wish you luck, and health. I don't make comments here lightly or for my own entertainment. I'm sorry that you don't/can't find value in what I have said. I think for now, I'll leave this thread.. I'm not going to play into this back and forth of dissecting each line we write to each other. You have a lot of love and support here. I know you'll rally together and be great with each other. I don't fit here.
Take care, I'm done here... I know when to walk away.