Thirty...
Nothing is wrong with you, you are just an alcoholic, like me.
I can remember asking myself the very same question once. The longer I was sober, the more I examined myself, my life. I discovered alot of things along the way. As I explored those, I discovered why I drank, and more importantly, what I needed to do not to drink.
I wasn't crazy...just fighting the demon.
Putting down the bottle is the first step. If that is all it took to keep us sober, well., this site wouldn't even exist.
While drinking, I spent too much time in my own head. Once I stopped, and got past the detox phase, I found that I didn't dwell there as much anymore. That was a good thing.
You can make it past 4 days...You know you can...just keep on keeping on....