I spent 6 days in the hospital with esophogeal varices.
ER--transfusion ICU- more transfusions 3 days observation.
Scared me too....
I came home with meds and a warning to never again drink.
I finished the meds...did return to drinking but
I re-conn3cted AA a few months later. No more alcohol.
That was over 20 years ago....I did not have another bleeding episode.
I certainly hope this will be your turning point...All my best