Bubba, keep trying!
It took me nearly 30 years to even get a handle on this problem. I thought I had it beat several times over the years, only for it to keep coming back, stronger than ever before.
I'm now on Day 68 and it gets better each and every day. I NEVER thought I could make it this far. If I can do this, ANYBODY can!
Even if you keep stumbling, please keep coming back here. We're all human and this thing I call "the beast" doesn't care about good intentions. In order to beat it, we must dig deep and search our souls for the answer. I only pray that everyone who is hurting here can feel the relief that not drinking has provided me with over the past two months.