Today I realize how painful this recovery can be for me. I'm just feeling undone and overwhelmed by my emotions. Thank you for posting Step 1. I need to do some concrete work, it helps.
I "say" that I know I'm powerless over other people's behavior...and yet I still try to control, in little secretive, manipulative ways that I think no one can see, until I'm called on it or until I recognize I'm doing it. Its horrifying to realize all the ways that I have and continue to try and change my husband, my parents, my children, even though I say I have started on the path to recovery. I'm so ashamed of myself.