Chery, I'm sorry.
But know this...it will never be that day 'one' again, because even though you slipped, you have learned a whole lot in those 102 days...things you would not have known had you never expierenced that 'clean' time.
Now, take what you've learned and apply it to your recovery. Learn how to deal with past emotional issues, face them, then leave them where they belong...in the past.
Today is the beginning of the rest of your life.
Penny