Chery,
You are far from alone.
I want you to know I still think you are a Goddess regardless of what happened tonight.
You, Lost Butterfly and Penny are my role models here because you all are all kicking these damn pills in the arse. Just like I am working so hard to do.
As you probably know I too have suffered sexual assault, three times over for me. I understand how painful it is when old feelings you had buried are dredged up.
You have really helped me by sharing you story today.
Tomorrow I have to go to the rape crisis centre for the first time. My evil little addict mind was planning on taking extra pills with me 'just in case I needed them'. You know what? I'm not going to go over my taper dose. I'm anxious, I'm scared, I don't want to go but I know I have to. Unlike you at least I'll be talking to someone who is trained to deal with sexual assault.
You have done so well, come so far and all the time had so much pain inside. Like LB said this is just a bump. I don't blame you for what happened and doubt anyone else will either.
You still inspire me and I'm sure so many others.
You are still one of my heroes, don't forget that.
Thank you for helping me,
Much love,
Faerie xx