Hi Cubile75!
You are so right! And i am by no way offended. I kept thinking "If I am sober, then why don't I feel sober?" That's why I posted the thread with the title "What am I?"
Im sitting here reading about group therapy for substance abusers for school (weird, right?) and I see a pattern of growth and change among the clients as they progress within the group. I may have cold turkeyed everything- but by no way did I explore my self and the past. So while I have grown over the years and I can now say no to drugs and alcohol, basically i think i have emotionally stayed the same. I'm an addict trying to google what is going on inside me and then use it to give myself therapy. Obviously this isn't working!
Thanks so much for the insight. I can honestly say I need a 12 step group and some therapy.