Please don't leave, KC! This board is exactly where you need to be. It's the entire purpose of the board. We're here to support you. Not everyone gets it the first time, or even the second or third. AA isn't for everyone. Yes, they have helped a lot of people, but not everyone is into that sort of thing. The main thing is that you keep trying. Stay with us and read and post and let us try to help you. You can do this!