Oh my! Have to figure something else out. Went to not one, but TWO AA meetings today. One at "sunrise" at a church near my work place, and the one near my home. It is NOT for me....at least what I experienced today. Not sure what I will do next. I feel nauseous around 5pm, which I know is a sign of alcohol withdrawal. So I did the next normal thing -- had a glass of wine. I am a loser, I know. I don't deserve the time and attention on this board. Will lurk from time to time and try to deal with this another way. Thanks to all who have read and tried to help. I don't want to waste your time. KC