Hi KC1 -
I'm Barb.
I've been reading this thread for a bit now,
I think there's been some good advice and encouragement on the thread so I just kept to myself since I'm not *on* here as much as I once was.
this last post ....
*sigh*
You know,
our 'signifigants' repond in different and bizarre ways
when we take the first steps into sobriety.
I'm waiting for you to say that's what you're going to do.
One glass of wine *is* much better than a pint a night or a bottle a week.
But it's the *suffereing* that's going on meanwhile that I'm watching.
Because I know what that is.
I'm waiting to see if you figure it out.
Help is available - right in the front of the phone book.
It's free
it's every day
it's all the time.
You can't beat that with a stick.
But first you need to take a look at what's being said to you in your home and by your friends and relations. That's not easy to do when you haven't lost everything.
That's why there's so many of us here on this site who DID lose everything. So we know.
We're whatcha call 'authorities' on denial.
I think if you say to your family you are going to stop drinking for say, a month....
and you require their help and support ....
And the first thing your spouse does is go buy booze to drink in front of you
or to tempt you ...
tells me there's an unhealthy realtionship factor involved as well.
What we in recovery call 'toxic'.
You have a LOT to think about in the next few days, hon.
I hope you'll keep posting and every couple of days go back and read the first posts.
When you decide you will need help to stop drinking
that you cannot stop on your own...
there's literally a 'nation' of fellow sufferers
who've found a solution.
And the hands are out to you.
Best wishes,
Barb Dwyer