Hey all...
Hey just got some thoughts about drinking tonight. I tried to call my sponsor and another friend in the program who was my temp sponsor. Both asleep. Its such a pain not being able to reach anyone late when i'm alone and I get the thoughts running... I guess I'm suffering from euphoric recall. I have been feeling better these last few weeks, currently on day 77. I think it was easier back when I was lying in the fetal position crying out for a drink... at least then it was more obvious that I shouldn't take one. I haven't been sober this long since I was 16. (I'm 21) Now its all mind games. Been getting some exercise so thats been good, sometimes I remember drinking/using after a good exercise and wish I could go back. But by the end drinking had taken away my motivation to do anything... its done it once (well many times) and it will do it again. Anyway just posting on here has been enough i'm sure to keep me from taking a drink tonight. Thanks everyone for listening...