Originally Posted by Bamboozle

(((toomutch)))


I know it sucks (depression here, not BP), but please keep trying to find the right meds/dosage.

What I'm on isn't as effective as it was when I had my dosage changed again. This time the pink cloud lasted about a month. Looks like I'll have to talk to the doc again and try something different.

I was really bad last night...I wanted to jump out of my skin. I couldn't think rationally (although at the time I believed dying/killing myself would be perfectly rational). I didn't do anything...I just felt what I felt and didn't act on it. I got a shower and went to bed...cried until I fell asleep. Luckily I woke up feeling better. I'm not happy or feeling good today...but what I feel now is under my control.

I wanted to give up everything yesterday. I was going to drop therapy and all my meds and let it take me. I hate feeling like that and knowing there isn't anything I can do about it until it decides to pass.

Hang in there, hon.