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It's Sunday morning in OZ, feeling OK today.
Held myself on 18 pills yesterday so fairly happy with myself that I have come down from 20. Enjoyed my bubble bath, I hope you all did something nice for yourselves too.
There are a couple of people here on SR struggling more than me with opiates that are really inspiring me right now, you guys probably know who I am talking about, they are amazing.
I have been really worried about a young girl here who has just been through a similar experience to what I have been through with sexual assault. I am happy to say she has taken my and other's advice and is doing something about it, she is not making the same mistake I did so many years ago.
I think that I must have gone through all the horrible things I have for a reason. If that reason is so that I can help others then I am at peace with it. It makes my pain worth it knowing that I can ease the pain of others.
My parents think I should look into becoming a sexual assault therapist when I am better and ready to work again. I think I could handle it and be good at it. I understand exactly what it is like to feel confused, scared, betrayed and ashamed and believe that with training I could truly help other women and men. Of course I still want to be a published author too.
Now that I am starting to deal with my addiction I see a future for myself, I know I'm not gonna die young anymore.
That is the best feeling and gift in the world.
And you know what, I couldn't do it without all of you and your love and support.
Thank you,
Much love,
Faerie xx