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Hello,
I am 33 years old and can finally admit that I am an alcoholic. My mother is one (she will not admit it), my grandmother was one and my uncle is one, too. At 21 I began to recover from an opiate addiction, and at 23 I successfully withdrew from methadone. I did not attend NA and had little support at the time.
It's been a struggle to get to the point where I have to admit that I have no control over alcohol. Unlike morphine, I can't seem to stop it. I've never been all that fond of AA, I am not spiritual and don't necessarily agree with the AA philosophy, but I'm at a stage where I'm willing to give it a go. I don't drink daily, rather I binge drink on my days off work. I haven't had a night sober this weekend, tonight will be the start. I want to be sober and I'm also scared of being sober. Thanks for reading.