I am going to see my therapist on Tuesday and I will explain to her everything that is going on and she will relay it to my psychiatrist. I have met her once briefly so this will be my first actual appointment with her. I know there is a lengthy questionnaire involved. If I am having suicidal thoughts at that time and can't guarantee that I will be safe, I will go back to the hospital. I know I need to be completely honest with her; but me going to the hospital affects my family in a negative way and they worry a lot about me. Anyway I just wanted to check in again.