Hi All,
Feel really bad today and have to make a confession. Makes me feel awful when I think of how well you all think I'm doing.
I've slipped.
Yesterday and now today [about 10 mins ago] I have taken 4 extra pills. I'm supposed to be taking 16 and have taken 20.
I have no excuse except that the physical and emotional withdrawals have gotten the better of me the past 2 days. Been thinking about what happened to me too much and have been in pain and feeling sick.
16 just isn't holding me. I know I need to speak to my doctor so I just rang the surgery but can't get in to see him any earlier than the 20th.
I know I have to try harder.
So many other people are able to do it, why can't I?
Will try my hardest to do better tomorrow, that's all I can do.
I feel so ashamed and am sorry for disappointing you all.
With great regret,
Faerie x