Hi VC - glad you came here to tell about it. You don't have to go back there ever again. I wanted so badly to moderate and be able to have a few now and then. It never worked even once. It always led me back to hell. If there had been a way to control my drinking, I'd have found it. There isn't. You can do it - this time for sure!
P.S. Losers do not keep trying, they just cave in and give up. You are no loser.