jade, if there is one thing I got from your post that stood out to me it was
trying to make my friends and loved ones smile/happy
Your job today is to make YOU happy! I stopped trying to do for others when I could not do for myself. Today I know that when I get up in the morning there is only one person I KNOW I can make happy and that's me. I put myself first today. Give myself a break and I have to be selfish for me. Being a people pleaser I spent so much energy trying to help others and I never left anything for me. Today, I AM the Queen of my Castle.
And just remember, no matter what, no matter what, don't pick up. All you have to do is get through the next second, minute, hour, day week and so on. Keep posting. So glad you are here.
