Hoping honesty will help
I am finally feeling somewhat "ok" again after my latest fall...my latest regret/mistake/bad decision...call it whatever....the last time i decided it was ok to let myself drink...
So I am feeling better....the saddness and depression have finally lifted off me and I am actually smiling, laughing and back to my light hearted self....trying to make my friends and loved ones smile/happy....working on making life better....
This is when I always seem to f*ck up!!! When things start getting ok/good again......when I feel ok....I always somehow talk myself into thinking I can drink....without the bad coming back????? AND I AM AWARE OF THIS!!!! But I keep doing it....over and over and over again.....
How can I finally put an end to this cycle???