I was 50 yrs old when I stopped drinking and felt like a 12 yr old, I was practically scared of my own shadow. I had no idea who Judy was w/o my life long 'friend' alcohol. I went to AA meetings in the beginning but I really just wanted to be alone. The meetings weren't for me but the 12 steps helped me immensely and continue to be a guide for living my life. It took me 12-18 months to truly adjust to my new sober self, and the time was well spent as I am now happier, more content, calm, forgiving, etc etc etc. Be patient with yourself.