For me, looking back Debs?
I was scared. The new can be very frightening - the old, however bad, can be...not comfortable, but familiar - the devil you know.
But it's your addictive mind doing the thinking....it's not great with trust or hope or long range forecasts.
I have a life now I could have only dreamed of then - and it's because I faced the fear, took the leap and didn't try to pull out....
I knew anything had to be better than the life I had...so I trusted the folks here...and they were right.
Very few of us manage the dive all the way the first time.
Took me 15 years. It needn't take anyone else that long.
Try again Debs - reach out - make a network...call numbers, sit in a meeting...post here before the battles over.
make it harder this time to give in
you can do this
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