Thanks for your concern guys,
As Dee said I've been in touch with him.
Had a great day yesterday, well until a certain thread upset me but that is thankfully closed now.
Not feeling so great today, feeling angry and stressed out and the dreaded withdrawals are starting to kick in due to my tapering since my body is used to a higher dose.
Not giving up though!!!
I feel I've come too far to quit my recovery now.
Checked out the 'Overcount' website that some very supportive people have suggested yesterday. Found it hard to navigate and the application form hard to read. Will have another look later though. Not sure if I need their help though as I have my doctor. But I guess the more help I have the better.
Yeah, still feeling much anger towards J and know that is not healthy. I'm seeing my psychologist on Tuesday so will talk to him about how to let go of anger. I don't like feeling this way.
Fortunately J has not tried to contact me yet and I hope he doesn't in the future.
I really miss his beautiful dog, I wish I had a chance to say good bye. [oh great now I'm crying] I need a ciggie...
OK, back now and have composed myself.
Not gonna have a pit-party today.
Onwards and upwards,
Much love to you all,
Faerie xx