Sapphire: I'm sorry you're hurting ... I know how anger can overshadow all the love. I have moved past that anger (at least for now
I'm sure it will show up again eventually) by reminding me that he doesn't drink to hurt me (people kept saying QTIP = Quit taking it personally). I still love him very much (mostly the loving, caring, sober side of him), but I'm also starting to see me showing indifference at times (times where I shut him out completely to protect myself... like putting up a wall again that he had broken down when we first started dating). It's the indifference that scares me (I don't want to become cold, I don't want to stop feeling).