most people that commit suicide do not talk about wanting to kill their selves... especialy with the person they love... i have had these thoughts before... every addict does.. its a way of looking for help.. a way of saying i need help.. i want help.. but cant do it myself... and i dont want to take the time to do it.. next time you go see your thyapist try to take her with you.. just to support you.. and have her get in on the conversation.. i bet she sarts thinking about getting help..