Thanks Clay, I am still using but am being careful.
I was doing so well with weaning myself off but my codeine use has escalated since the rape by J. But I do not blame him for that, he did not put the pills in my hand, I did. I used 30 today [over the course of thee day] not proud of myself, quite ashamed.
But tomorrow is another day and I have a plan in place to help me use the bare minimum. Get up, have my coffee and ciggie [another bad habit I only picked up last year, one of the most stupid things I have ever done] take my dog for a long walk, jump on line and check the new posts, shower, brekkie, 8 pills [safe dose, 8 is the max for 24 hrs as advised on the box] call the rape crisis line and get help, post to update you guys, lunch [gonna go out and treat myself to sushi, yummy and healthy] read for a while, walk dog again, check new posts again and by then my Mum will be back from work and I should be OK for the rest of the day.
I'm gonna try my best tomorrow, I really want to get off these damn pills.