Thanks for the feedback mtn. You're right that I am frightened. Perhaps because I'll be on public trans for an hour just to get there and I'm a bit of an agoraphobe when I'm drinking. I'm terrified that they will turn me away, like they did at SF Gen. and I'll be out there detoxing in the world. Most of my friends have moved away and I don't have any family left, so I'm feeling a little scared and lost at the moment. I know I can't keep this up; it's (literally) killing me. I appreciate the resources. Now I need to rally the courage.