Hey man asking for help is really hard. All of us can relate. Just coming on the boards is a solid step. I'm so sorry about the situation with your daughter. I don't pretend to know how hard that is(no kids). However like others have said doing good things for yourself is the best step you can take. In the midst of active illness its almost impossible for many of us to imagine there is any reason to try to do things better. That's the bottle talking. Good luck man--I have found AA incredibly helpful--but all of us have to take our own path.