Welcome back. 
Quick question, and no offense, and I'm not the one who said it, but...
Were you spinning your wheels with your prior way(s) of thinking? Maybe?
During my early recovery attempts I was doing exactly that, but there was no way I would admit it.
As far as posts here from people:
take what you want and leave the rest.
I'll venture to say that 99.99% of the people here wish you well and want to help you.
Keep coming back... NO MATTER WHAT...!