I no longer drink either but am just starting to face that I was sick, too, to get into my rel'ship with my ex, and then to stay for 2 yrs, off and on.
I was addicted to him like he is addicted to alcohol.
You're on the path of healing, whether it feels like it or not. Looking at all of this, as painful as it is, is good for you and will help you make better choices in the future. That's what I hope for myself, as well.
Originally Posted by
TakingCharge999 
Love does not last forever... oh I know, the hard part here is knowing there was not love, just addiction. From how he started verbally abusing and treating me I have slowly and painfully realized he never loved me, no one can love a person then act in that way.
I no longer drink, at least something good came out from this madness