Old 07-21-2009, 07:19 AM
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jamdls
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In the last few years of my drinking I also did most of my drinking alone partly because I'd gotten fed up with listening to all the b.s. that goes along with going out to party. When I did go out I was "the life of the party" but I look back on that with a ton of embarassment and often shame. In my first year of sobriety I was very uncomfortable around most anyone, I didn't have my crutch, my wine, to lean on and it took me time to get to know ME w/o the fog of alcohol. Now that I've gotten to know myself and really LIKE myself my self-confidence has soured and I don't think there is any situation I would fear, now there are situations I would not want to be in like in a room full of people drinking alot but that's because I would find them very boring and stupid. You have to be patient and give yourself time.
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