I totally relate to your post. The awkward feelings for me have fluctuated over my eight months of sobriety, gone for awhile but back recently. Anyway, one thing to realize: there is a difference in feeling awkward and being awkward. That is, just because you didn't feel awkward when you drinking, doesn't mean you weren't. Alcohol turns off our insecurites and make us feel as if we are being cool as sh**, doesn't mean we actually are, our perception of it is impaired. And just because you feel awkward now, doesn't mean you actually are. I know for me I tend to think of myself as a 0 or a 10. If I am not the wittiest, coolest guy in the room, I feel like a 0. Alcohol/drugs made me think I was 10 (but of course I wasn't). There are many areas inbetween and part of recovery is about becoming comfortable with who we are, imperfect but not pathetic. Thank you for your post and good luck.