well, that's IT! no more cooking for awhile
i'll drink my smoothies instead
actually my daughter made me water, and lime and ice in a stemless wine glass and it tasted pretty fine. i know some might think the glass would be a trigger but it just felt normal to pick up that glass and drink something. so now i have eaten and the i'm fine. no alcohol craving. the weird thing about me is that i never drank before 6 pm or after 8 pm... i could get a bottle of wine (or four martini's) squeezed into those two hours though while preparing dinner and eating dinner.