Hi Liberty
I'm so glad to read what you wrote. You can do this.
I don't think I processed emotional pain at all when I was drunk or high...the real way, the best way to get over something is to..get over it - go through it, process it, deal with it and move on.
Tears can be cleansing.
I'm sorry for your physical pain too. I self medicated for years for chronic pain.
I'm sure I don't need to tell you the best way to deal with that is in partnership with your doctor.
Pls keep posting...don't turn backwards
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