Stop with the facebook, the e-mail, the text messages!!!!!
Just stop!!!! Stop all of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The shame should be felt by him and them for their actions! You have nothing to feel bad about. You loved someone, he used you, he is using everyone around him. If this other girl thinks she is not being played, she's wrong. If YOU think she is not being played, You are wrong.
You deserve a better life, a better love, a happy future!!! You can and will have it! You might consider counseling for yourself so that you can understand your obsession with this man who is CLEARLY not worth it.
Throw yourself whole heartedly into healing, recovering, doing things for YOU to make you happy!!!!
Huge mega hugs and prayers, HG