Yeah, I remember the night my ex smashed my phone AND his computer in a drunken tirade.
I re-read this chat log specifically, and only this chat log, because when he did cocaine a few weeks back, I was looking for something older to send to him, to show him "hey, i've mentioned your drinking before and nothing is changing." I dug it up by doing a search in ***** for "drinking'" or "bar" or something like that (lol) and re-sent it to him as a reminder.
But as I was looking through it, it just hammered home how much in denial I was back then, about my own codependency issues and his alcoholism.
It's like I was in a fog that him doing cocaine while drunk, yet another time, had to shake me out of.
I don't ever want to end up like that again.
Originally Posted by
naive 
hi sandra-
i've had conversations like that one. if rereading that helps remind you why you split, then i would keep returning to it in your weaker moments. sometimes, when a bit of time elapses, we forget what it was actually like.
once, when me and my xABF had a fight, he threw three of my mangos out the window into the parking lot. when i woke in the morning, the mangos were sitting there smashed. that's the image i pull back into my head during my weak moments. it's just a reminder of the craziness to me.
naive