I'm freaking out right now. I'm overwhelmed. There are huge, life-changing decisions I need to make, and soon, and I keep putting them off because I don't know what to do. I can't concentrate, and I honestly just want to sleep. I can't deal with this stuff. Have you ever known your answer to something, but not wanted to admit it? If I do what I know I have to do, it sets into motion a chain of events I don't feel emotionally equipped to deal with. I know I'm making more excuses as to why I can't stop, but I'm not exaggerating when I say I don't think I can handle this without something to numb my emotions. This will turn my whole life upside down.