I think the key here is to "Let go".
Let go of that person you are trying to be before the addiction. That person has evolved with time and circumstance.
Whether you had been addcited or not thast would have happened. But I totally get what you mean.
Now just focus on who you are now. Its like your reborn kinda. So mold yourself into who you want to be. Along with who you already are. No need to go back to what you were. Anything is possible. And with clean time it makes it that much more possible.
Congrats on your clean time. And just learn to let go of resentment. It is one of the biggest things that hold people back.