Originally Posted by
CarolD 
I often drank again after my decision to quit.
Many of us do exactly that.
Exactly. I also drank again over & over despite swearing that I would never touch another drop.
In a way, I think these relapses help drive the fact home that we will never be able to drink like a normal person. It sort of beats that last bit of denial out of us.
How about looking at recovery options, getting some help?