I releasped
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I releasped
Well I did. And I hate that word "relapse" because to me that sounds like something that happed out of the blue. This relapse didn't happen out of the blue, I let it happen!
I was sober for the past 4 months but things started feeling bad for me, and instead of doing what I needed to do and asking for help. I tried to "man up" and do it on my own. And what happened?....I drank. And guess what?...I found out I'm still Alcoholic, there's still plenty of alcohol out there, and its still really easy to screw up your life if you want too!
I screwed up after 4 months sober. I admit it here...thats why I have been gone for the past 2 weeks. I just hope everyone here will allow me back, and help me through this stupidity I put myself through these past 2 weeks. I admit...I screwed up and I need to get myself back on track. I really don't know what happed to me these past 2 weeks, yet on the other hand...I do! I choose to mess up. So my first thing to do IMO is to tell everyone here I messed up and been drinking these past 2 weeks, and go from there I guess...
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I was sober for the past 4 months but things started feeling bad for me, and instead of doing what I needed to do and asking for help. I tried to "man up" and do it on my own. And what happened?....I drank. And guess what?...I found out I'm still Alcoholic, there's still plenty of alcohol out there, and its still really easy to screw up your life if you want too!
I screwed up after 4 months sober. I admit it here...thats why I have been gone for the past 2 weeks. I just hope everyone here will allow me back, and help me through this stupidity I put myself through these past 2 weeks. I admit...I screwed up and I need to get myself back on track. I really don't know what happed to me these past 2 weeks, yet on the other hand...I do! I choose to mess up. So my first thing to do IMO is to tell everyone here I messed up and been drinking these past 2 weeks, and go from there I guess...
Steve
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Old AA saying....to someone who returned to drinking again...
"Sit down...we don't shoot our wounded"
Steve I often drank again after my decision to quit.
Many of us do exactly that.
You only fail if you give up trying
Good to know your here with us...
"Sit down...we don't shoot our wounded"
Steve I often drank again after my decision to quit.
Many of us do exactly that.
You only fail if you give up trying
Good to know your here with us...
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Originally Posted by CarolD 
I often drank again after my decision to quit.
Many of us do exactly that.
Many of us do exactly that.
In a way, I think these relapses help drive the fact home that we will never be able to drink like a normal person. It sort of beats that last bit of denial out of us.
How about looking at recovery options, getting some help?
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That voice that says "I feel bad (for whatever reason) and deserve relief with alcohol" is a tough one to overcome. I had to suffer through countless "beat down" relapses before I finally figured out that the alcohol "relief" I was being promised was a bald faced lie. The abject misery, despair, and suffering got exponentially worse with each one. I tend to focus more now on avoiding the misery rather than obtaining the happiness.
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Did you learn anything you can use next time things start feeling bad?
wow guys, thanks so much already for the replies already, didn't expect this many replies so fast...I really do appreciate it though. Makes me really glad to be honest here on this site. Thanks so much!
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Originally Posted by DayWalker
Well I did. And I hate that word "relapse" because to me that sounds like something that happed out of the blue. This relapse didn't happen out of the blue, I let it happen!
I was sober for the past 4 months but things started feeling bad for me, and instead of doing what I needed to do and asking for help. I tried to "man up" and do it on my own. And what happened?....I drank. And guess what?...I found out I'm still Alcoholic, there's still plenty of alcohol out there, and its still really easy to screw up your life if you want too!
I screwed up after 4 months sober. I admit it here...thats why I have been gone for the past 2 weeks. I just hope everyone here will allow me back, and help me through this stupidity I put myself through these past 2 weeks. I admit...I screwed up and I need to get myself back on track. I really don't know what happed to me these past 2 weeks, yet on the other hand...I do! I choose to mess up. So my first thing to do IMO is to tell everyone here I messed up and been drinking these past 2 weeks, and go from there I guess...
Steve
I was sober for the past 4 months but things started feeling bad for me, and instead of doing what I needed to do and asking for help. I tried to "man up" and do it on my own. And what happened?....I drank. And guess what?...I found out I'm still Alcoholic, there's still plenty of alcohol out there, and its still really easy to screw up your life if you want too!
I screwed up after 4 months sober. I admit it here...thats why I have been gone for the past 2 weeks. I just hope everyone here will allow me back, and help me through this stupidity I put myself through these past 2 weeks. I admit...I screwed up and I need to get myself back on track. I really don't know what happed to me these past 2 weeks, yet on the other hand...I do! I choose to mess up. So my first thing to do IMO is to tell everyone here I messed up and been drinking these past 2 weeks, and go from there I guess...
Steve
i like your even tanner pic are you into your mma ???? any thoughts on UFC 100 on sat ???
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hang in there daywalker.. i have "gone back out" many times.. the thing to remember is the progression of alcoholism.. it just keeps getting worse.. the only cure is ODAAT sobriety! i have been sober now since 1-20-07' find yourself a home group meeting!
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My sponsor in AA (who is pretty staunch) said to me on my last relapse: "you didn't relapse or slip. You are an alcoholic. That's what alcoholics do". Shortly after that I got serious and took the steps. Now I don't want to drink any more and life is great.
A prominent Doctor in the field of alcohol and drug addiction once wrote this:
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over...........
A prominent Doctor in the field of alcohol and drug addiction once wrote this:
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over...........
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