Kimm992

I just don't know what to do right now so I thought that maybe coming here and typing everything out might make me feel better.

My mom called me on Sunday (I haven't spoken to her in almost a year). She apologized for all the horrible things she said to me the last time we spoke and said she's been thinking a lot about my wedding. Then she said she needed a place to stay. I realized right then that she wasn't really sorry and didn't really care that I'm getting married in 2 months...she was just willing to say anything if it meant I might let her stay with me.

I told her she can't stay with me. I said if she wants to get clean I will take her to a detox facility but she can't stay with me. She of course just started denying that she has a drug problem. Then she said that she's homeless (she was calling from a motel) and that she's going to be on the streets and has to prostitute for money.

I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do with this information. I know there is nothing I can do for her but I just feel so helpless doing nothing.

I got off the phone with her and she left me about 5 messages on Monday and Tuesday. She started saying, "I just want to say goodbye" as if she's going to die. So I called the police and told them I thought she was a suicide risk.

They sent police to the motel and I guess she must have convinced them she was fine because they didn't do anything.

She then left me 4 more messages since yesterday begging for my help and saying she just needs a place to stay for 2 weeks.

Tonight my little brother called me (he's 19 - so not that little but still little to me) and said that she called him saying that she's homeless and just wanted to call and say goodbye to him. He was really really upset.

I was furious so I called her at the motel and told her I was going to get a restraining order against her and have her arrested if she called again. She just screamed at me and hung up.

I don't know what to do right now. I wish there was something I could do but I know that there's nothing I can do for her. I feel so helpless and sad and angry and guilty all at one time. I feel like I'm so close to my breaking point that it scares me.

Thanks for listening.