Hi Kelly, wanted to come on here and see how you were doing. I felt exactly like you did at one time. I wanted to quit to live life "normally", but I LOOOOVED the high. I almost overdosed and believe me there is no feeling like that. If you haven't felt it, I hope you never do. Please get the help you need however you have to do it kelly before your taken away in an ambulance or worse. Your worth it and you should know that. You sound like an intelligent sensitive person. You said you are not ready to quit but I think you are. That's why your here talking to us. You are ready. You can be strong and quit. Keep talking and just let it all out. Noone here will judge you.At least they haven't to me yet.lol. Try going in the chat room sometime.see if that helps you. Take care.