thank you to everyone for the feedback
Our "vacations" aren't the normal, relaxing kind. It isn't just a getaway for the two of us. Instead it is a huge social/ family five day hotel pressure cooker with all the dynamics that come with everyone getting together. My husband never drinks- he is like my stable, sober anchor in more ways than one. He is thrilled that I "quit" and would probably be very disappointed to know that it's only been 12 days. The truth is that I don't know how to cope with this social scene without drinking- it just requires too much fake smiling and ignoring the resentment that I have to deal with all the tense dynamics while simultaneously making sure that my children are on perfect behaviour and everyone stays happy....