effortjoy
I don't get it - I'm missing the logic in this
if I hid it that well then maybe just for the vacation this week I will drink and then I'll stop when we come home..
You spoken before about not wanting to live this way. You know you need to stop.
I don't want to be a drinker again.
Thats the first decision - now you have to work out when you're ready to stop.
It took me 2 full years to do that - there was always a job, or a crisis, or I couldn't sleep, or I felt sad, or I felt happy, or bored, or angry....and I got a LOT worse in those last two years.
I wish I'd been as self aware as you are.
Act on that self awareness, ok?
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