Day 12 and 'preparing' for relapse
Finally brought up my drinking problem with my husband and he said that he noticed that I hadn't had a drink in six months. But he didn't say anything because he figured I just wanted to stop without his interference. I have only been sober for 12 days. For the past six months I have been 'drunk' almost every day! I feel guilty that I didn't correct him. But then I started thinking...if I hid it that well then maybe just for the vacation this week I will drink and then I'll stop when we come home..I am already thinking about stocking up on my favorites so i can bring them to the hotel with me..just in case I really need them..I know that I won't drink before vacation but I am "planning" my relapse even though I don't want to be a drinker again. Don't know what to do; can't even start packing the suitcases without making my list of drinking essentials. How will I relax without alcohol?