Thanks for the advice... yes, I have been to an AA meeting. It did not work the first time, but I think that's no reason to give up on it totally. For me, I think I need a combination of weapons to tackle this.... including books, individual counseling, CDs and reading these posts along with AA meetings when I can. The fact that this is website is available all the time is GREAT making it easier for people like me who can't get out at night very easily. Just reaching out to others is a HUGE step forward. I am motivated by hearing other people's stories on here -- thanks!